i have an obsession.

i feel that there are few things i'm "obsessed" about. if you were to ask my friends what is cate obsessed about they would probably say, mary-kate and ashley, urban outfitters, celebrities and.... magazines. what i have come to find that my true, i have to have obsession is magazines. i realized this fetish last year when i went into the grocery store just to get a couple of things and i found myself feeling the desperate need to buy a magazine. i was like, "whoa cate, you just bought one the other day." i got one anyways.

i love fashion. i love everything about clothes, the way people wear them, and just the artistic creativity that goes into creating them. i think this is the driving force behind my obsession. celebrities have the financial ability to buy clothes constantly, which is why i love looking at them all the time. i have about thirty magazines in my room right now, i did throw away a lot recently. i keep my favorites, some are from 2003.

i get ideas from other people. i flip through magazines, seeing how someone puts something together and it will give me a great idea. i love that fashion and clothes are shared but at the same time you can make it your own. i bet you are dieing to know what my favorite mags are aren't you?? haha just kidding. but i'll tell you anyways...

Nylon- music and fashion truly do go hand and hand, this magazine is a blend of that
ELLE- even though i don't by this one that much (it's expensive) i love sitting in the store and flipping through it
Teen Vogue- i know what your thinking, but i LOVE this magazine- it always has great clips of celebrities and other people on just a regularly day
In Style- thanks to hopes subscription i got hooked
People- i know a lot of these mags are trash and really i hate how the paparazzi treat celebrities, but this one seems to be the classier of them all
boho- this is a relatively new magazine, but i love it because it's green and has really creative was to be organic

ok i won't keep going, but those are just some of my favs.

magazines just make me happy. i think it got it from my mom because when i was little she would always get country living at the store. kate's mom also always had People while we were in middle and high school. some of my favorite dates with josh have been when we would get coffee and go sit in hastings. he would read a book and i would look at magazines. even though i know it can get out of control, like when i'm not paying attention while walking through the store looking through a magazine, i'm ok with my obsession. it is one of my simple pleasures.

so it's been awhile...

so i have decided to start blogging again, since i have some things going on. i must say i have missed it and miss reading other blogs....

being engaged makes you realize how much marriage is going to change you. and usually i don't like saying things "change me", it scares me into thinking i am becoming someone else. i am reading this book called Sacred Marriage and the cover says this statement, "what if God designed marriage to make us holy more than to make us happy?" this statement alone has already rocked my view of what marriage is all about.

the Lord has really been asking me, "what is going to make you more holy, and make you look more like me??" i feel that we get caught up in "what is going to make me happy??" like we are entitled to so much, when really that is not true. what is going to make me more holy and make me glorify my Lord right now in this phase of life is marriage. and the amazing thing about God is that when you decide to choose holiness over happiness, you are filled with inexpressible joy. i cannot even put into words the joy i feel about marrying josh. i am excited to be changed into a more holy woman.

marriage will change me, and thank God it will.